I know this thread has been dead for ages, but it wouldn't exactly fit in the 'DESPISE' thread. I hope you all read it.
I love you all.
Perhaps it is silly because are all busy, but my online friends are just as important as the ones I see every day; we have similar interests. We can be ourselves. We can give support and care even from a distance.
I've just been thinking lately. There's so much going on for me; most of it really good. I have a boyfriend that I love dearly, and a family I also love. Good friends. I work hard and make money, and I'm editing my book.
But there are some things...two things, mostly, that make me rage and cry and stand helpless. Despite this, I can't say how I feel, not to the people involved. It wouldn't help, just make things worse.
I can't say the angry things, the worrying things, out loud.
I can say the loving things. They are true. They are enough to drown out the bad, at times. I can shout them, and let them fill me up. Because I cannot afford to forget, no matter how angry or sad I am, how lucky I have it, and how much I am thankful for.
To my friends:
Rosie. I've missed all our hyper discussions.
I swear I'll get around to reading more Maid-sama! Eventually. Really, I will! I hope you will always be successful. Smile at yourself in the mirror. Remember that those who love you are not blinded or making excuses or saying niceties; we see you, and love the beautiful person you are.
SultanaLime. Your art is beautiful, and so are you. I wish there was a way I could make your hurts less. I love that you are sweet and creative, and really really nice. I read your tumblr, even though I don't have one.
As with Rosie, I'll read Pandora Hearts, I promise! At some point. In the future. Hopefully.
Dearheart. Your name is exactly what you are: a very dear heart. I know fewer people that are as patient and loving, and forgiving, as you are. You always seem to be so cheerful.
I love reading the things you write, and its always nice to know another Narnia fan. Even though we have differing views, we do not fight about it, and I never even think about our differences. You're just fun.
fantasysangel, Jenny. Gah, I love your smile. Seriously. I look at a picture of it, and boom! I'm smiling too. We haven't talked in a long time either, but I love looking at your cosplays, and I always wish that I knew how to color in photoshop so I could enter a drawing in your contests. You are kind and smart, adorable, and always improving as an artist. I've always wanted to go to England, and if I ever do I hope I'll somehow see you there.
TheOnlyBandGeek. Sorry I haven't talked to you as much as I'd like. I always see you updating your journal and think: oh I'll comment later, and then by the time I get around to it, you've posted three more and I'm behind.
Anyway, I love your geekiness, and how you always seem bubbly. Its infectious, and I love it.
Nefertekas. I love your sense of humor. Your little posters always have me loling, and I love all the conversations we've had (FMA, Twilight, and everything else it seems.) I love having someone to talk to that shares many of my opinions with me.
I know you haven't been on a while, but when you come back I can't wait to see more from you. You are funny and nice, and I love how you defend your opinions.
Shadow Mage Evelyn, or Evie. We don't talk very often, but I love your art, your sense of humor, and how your character really just shines through everything you do.
I hope you have a long and happy life, and I'm glad to know you, even the little bit I do.
Aleksandra, even though you haven't been my beta for a while now, I sill look fondly on our e-mails, and all the help you gave me, and all our funny conversations. You were one of my first online friends, and my first beta. I hope you are busy doing things you love, and that we can talk again soon.
You are funny and creative, and always made me feel better.
Pan-zareta. We also don't really talk anymore, but I remember all the funny things you would say in the comments, and how often it seemed like you stole my thoughts.
I hope you are doing well, and that you have many many good days.
Puzzle: You know how you said you got into FMA partly because you wanted to talk to crow? Well I joined the FMA clubhouse partly because I thought you and crow were really cool.
Still do, actually. Your review of The Land of Painted Caves has be laughing no matter how many times I read it; your posts make me smile, or make me want to give you a hug. I love how easily you make me laugh, and just how easy you are to talk to. You are very very sweet. Don't ever change, and I mean that.
Crow-feelings-rainbow-munculus.
As with Puzzle, I partly joined the FMA clubhouse because of you. You always seemed just really awesome to talk to, and I loved your sense of humor. Now, of course, I know you're horrible, but what can you do. XD Haha, no, now I love talking with you, and I love all your spazzy posts about things you love. I don't know if you realize it, but you come across as cute when you geek out.
I'm going with Puzzle's theory that you're actually made of concentrated win, because all your posts indicate it. Also, I will win the poking war. Just so you know.
Taranova, or as I like to call you, TaraTaylor.
Even though I didn't meet you until after I joined the clubhouse, I liked you immediately. Funny, considering we have very different views as far as pairings go XD. Now, I'm really glad we became facebook friends, and I love reading your posts. In reality, we actually have a fair amount in common, and its nice. I really had fun that one night we talked super late on chat, and hope I haven't bugged you by trying to talk since XD. I think you are stronger than you realize. More beautiful than you can see. I know me saying these things can't change how you feel, but I hope some part of you does know its true.
There are more of you out there, but here I tried to list the ones I knew best. All my online friends, please know that I do love you. And I wish these things toward you all:
Smiles, hugs that lift your heart, inspiration, a good night's sleep, and an endless supply of your favorite food when you need it.
Not sure what brought this on (maybe tiredness, seeing as its about three a.m. here) but I'm glad I said it.
Goodnight everyone!
As with Rosie, I'll read Pandora Hearts, I promise! At some point. In the future. Hopefully. 